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  • OH MY GOD

    April 4, 2010 0 Comments

    well i sit here typing this about a week late, but i thought i might as well share some stories with all of you. last week i had THE greatest week of my life by far. it is so hard to explain in words it was so awesome so you all are gonna get the short version. i went to new orleans last week with my dad and 24 people i didnt know. it was for a service project for my school. i was very nervous and apprehensive at first, for i didnt know anyone, but i immediately felt like i was welcomed. i slept in the same room with 9 other girls who were all older than me, and they were all incredibly nice to me. when we had service projects for the better part of the day, it was fun. when we either relaxed, made "walgreens runs" ,or went to the french quarter it was even more fun. i will never forget that week and the awesome people i met. i think i made some friends that i hopefully will have for life. on saturday wwe unfortunately had to drive 14 hours home. it was also my birthday. the only time i had mentioned it was very briefly the day before. as soon as i stepped on the bus everyone started singing happy birthday. deifinitely made me feel good. we had an awesome bus ride home full of many laughs. i would say i had the greatest birthday ever. i cant wait to see any of them again. so theres the short version of the greatest week of my life lol. it would take me about 3 hours to give anyone a little bit more detailed explanation lol.

  • Armaggedon

    March 12, 2010 1 Comment

    i had orginally posted a song called we cant die and this is the revised version. i felt that i couldve done better and i do believe this is better. its sorta a one against the world thing but i wanna hear your interpretations. here you go...

    here we are at the end of the world, so much pompous shit to endure, everyone likes to close their eyes so they wont see, this is makin me homicidal-im gonna murder the industry

    they censor our minds so were unprepared, were cut off from whats truly there,

    everyones got somethin to say, everyone wants to be heard, but people take our voices away so we feel ignored, so instead do actions and watch their whole world burn, actions speak louder than words-fuck them all its what they deserve

    chorus: fuck you all, im so glad that i dont belong, but when your reign is done DONT TRY TO BE ME(end chorus)

    fuck society-its my first priorety to show that the systems not workin, THE SYSTEMS NOT WORKIN

    im the PARIAH, the lonely OUTSIDER, driven by the only thing they gave me, the spilled blood of all my hopes and dreams

    you say that death is scary, but you act like you cant fuckin wait, you ask me why-i say WHY NOT?, i aint got nothin to lose and my soul cant be bought, you thought i would just sit back and rott?

    hows it feel to be the enemy of all that you envy?

    chorus

    my soul is gone, my lifes undone, my mouths sewn shut, i can only take so much

    this battle from within never ceases to exist, you ruined my life with meaningless bullshit, your world is so blind itll never realize, im gonna change this cuz i cant die

    you dont own my soul cuz you dont even know your own for its been shredded, you dont see but this is the real Armaggedon

    you wont kill me cuz you dont even know how to

    chorus

  • Alive

    March 5, 2010 1 Comment

    this song is called alive. People this song is just about bein yourself and not carin about what people want you to be or think of you. "Live you life"-#6

    I can see that im all alone again, i wanna be the cause of your worlds end, you try to compare me to you but were not the same, theres a difference cuz im the one with a brain

    my own mentality just wont comply, imma force to be reckoned with so decide, to try this mindless-pointless-fast paced, Game or realize i never wanted to be one of you in the first place

    chorus: you could say that i wanna be the center of this, but youre all wrong im just tired of blendin in, my lifes goal is to be as sick and twisted as i can be, i see the asylum but youre never gonna change me! (end chorus)

    i wanna disrupt all your plans again, i wanna piss you off til your at your wits end, you say that im the one who needs restrained, but if you take a look inside youll see that youre insane

    my disturbed individuality is only mine, it seems that im the only one with a free mind, im not goin away but you act like ive been erased, its your fault that you didnt see that im not one of you in the first place

    chorus

    take me- youll never take me Alive, break me- this wont end with a suicide, im not one of you and youll never change me

    hate me- i love to be the cause of all your hatred, covet me- you cant have me cuz you cant live until im dead, im not one of you and youll never change me

    take one last look around, and see that youre already down, you could never make me believe your lies, see that im still Alive so DIE, see that im still Alive so DIE-motherfucker-DIE

    resist me-but im the only thong left to see, exclude me- im everything you could never be, im not one of you and you could never change me

    face me-you came to this war not knowin what to do, remember me- in the battles i fight everyone has to lose, im not one of you and you could never change me

    everyone has to lose...

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    tigress3396
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    Posted 2 years ago by tigress3396

    i know what you mean by busy schedules and keeping to yourself. I am doing good. I have been busy working and for a week i was house sitting and dog sitting for my brother. i am glad to be home now. i hope you have a great week. take care. kim

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    Posted 2 years ago by tigress3396

    How have you been?

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    Posted 2 years ago by CanadianMaggot

    Hey, thanks! And agreed, it has been a while. I've been keeping to myself a bit the last while, except for rocking out at an Alice Cooper/Rob Zombie concert Saturday night lol. Hope all is well on your end as well!